Well i just finished my school..now i am having a good holiday. A lot of things happend to me, where should i start? hm... Hiro had a party couple of weeks ago in my apartment, there were about 30 peoples in the barbeque stand to have a party.but the party didnt go very well because Hiro got drunk and he had to go home earlier. Toshi,Syo, Yusaka stayed in my house n have a chat, actually at that time we saw a crawling cloud. it was beautiful anyway, i forgot to take a picture because i was too busy to have a conversation with all of the. well the next day i went to Army`s birthday. Well i finally can get through my life slowly but for sure. i started to forget about her slowly but for sure. this time i am not going to use my heart anymore. this time i`m using my head so i wont make any mistake no more.
Hmmm. actually in Friday i saw her in the Superbowl...i was trying to go to her house to pick up my stuff although before that i tried to call her.. she didnt pick it up, so i went to her house with Endry and my brother. when we were on the way home.. Endry suddenly wanted eat a fish ball so we stopped beside superbowl in y2k to buy some fish ball..
My bro shouted "hey thats Cindy and that Busaiku (fuck face)". i turn my head around and see them...walking away from me...i guess they didnt see me. she wore a black suit and thats the last time i ever see her....i was standing just standing firmly..and look at her...while her footstep slowly but sure left me behind.. I am so sad to think about how we ended up.. i wish i could turn back time but we both know thats impossible. Why she didnt realise that i really care about her, i know i hurt her before, but how could she? I must meant nothing to her, How can she be so cruel?
Well... maybe i have to let her go...there is nothing i can do right now..i only wish that as time goes by all the bad memores will be erase. Luckily she has gone for a while, i hope i wont meet her anymore in Sydney. I do have a plan to fade away this time.
Bebe, you know that i never want you to hate me like these day. cause i never hate you after what you have done to me. i always forgive you and always love you. Well i hope that you will find your own happiness cause i will not bother you anymore..
i have to concentrate on what i am doing right now, i dont wanna waste anymore second of my life. each second of my life mean something for me and i`m so tired... i have to lean back and to forget everything for a while. maybe i wont write anything anymore for a moment..
i am lost to put all my feeling into words..i will let you go this time.. no matter how hard it is. i have to accept that we are not meant to be together..
until then.....
Later...
may God always be with you....
Zizi
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