Dull for sure!!!

Each minute feels like an hour, each hour feels like a day, each day feels like a month, each month feels like a year. Damn... i cant settle down on this shit..just want to graduate as soon as possible. and do the right thing.

Although there are still a lot of circumstances and consideration about my future in Sydney. i ought to have a break for a while. just to take things easy and slow down. 2 weeks aint enough.. i need more than a month. Time is all i want right now.

I have been couch potato all this week, Third semester is the shitest thing.. aint nothing to do, Even on monday i dont even have a class. What a long week to kill, on the other hand. i heard that casino in Medan is all closing down because of the Kapolda shit is the new guy that hates gambling and any illegal shit. as a result, My father aint got income for this month. he told me to save some money. Well i feel bad as well.. thats why i tend to be at home. which is so damn bored and life is so fuckin dull!.

I had spent a lot of money on telephone bill. i am afraid that i wont be able to call cia.. for the next couple of weeks. i believe she wont mind, she even said that it is alright for her to go to the warnet to just have chat with me. How nice is that?. She is the only good thing at the moment. She is the one that totally understand me, care for me, and potentially will love me more than anything in this world.

I might get a job though to cover up my expenses of those bills and stuffs. I wish that on December i will be in Medan to celebrate a X mas and New Years eve with her. i wish both of us will connected each other. not only in da phone, but also in the real conversation. eye 2 eye.

there is nothing much to say, but next month Cindy will celebrate her birthday. i was invited as well. but i am not sure whether i should go or not. it seems awkward and i dont even know how`s cia gonna feel deep down inside.. althought she told me that she is alright with it. but to be honest i dont want her to celebrate her ex bf birthday. which is close to Cindy`s birthday.

Cia.. if you read this....i just want you to know that you had me at hello. You complete me..i never felt like this before.. its a weird and an odd feeling eyy.. there is no words to describe how i feel. even though we separated by an ocean and thousand of miles of island. i trust u deeply. u showed me ur love and ur caring that i could see. u convinced me that i am the only one that u need. I couldnt wait to hug you and to love you totally cia..

I wish that i wont be in the same hole as i did before. i hope that you are different than other women that i ever known.

Cia.. all i can say right now is that i miss you so much..
Last but not least.. i am falling for you so deeply..


dedicated to cia..
from co...