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Last night finally i spent my entire night at Hotel that cost 59 dollars/ day..
it was pretty sux..i mean the whole night.
i met with one of my fren..i asked her to bring a toothpaste, comb and a bottle of a water...it was 11 i guess..then.. i talked with her, and i realized that my fren was kinda talk behind my back...the gay one.. i mean..what the fuck was that. i aint care anyway..too many things swimming in my head, and finally i met my 2 korean class mate on the road..i talked with them..and they are kinda shock..when i told them that i dont have any place to stay.
i drank a beer with them..and talking.. after that...i went back to the uts computer lab..to sleep.. and i called my mum..just to talk..but she was really worried, and then she called my bro...and then he picked me up..

we had a fight and argument each other..he said that the prob it was entirely my fault. and he said..that his fren was very angry with me.. i mean..what the hell? how could u accuse entire things into my problem, u did a lot of mistakes too..but u aint care...u are supposed to take care of everything cause u aint study and u dont have to go to the school..like me..
but i dont hate my bro..i just hate the fact that he is so selfish..he just care about himself and his fuckin bitch. but truly and honestly, i really care about my mum and my father.. i loved them so much and i always wanna do my best to make them proud of me..
this whole week has ruined my life, this week i`m going to over turn the plate!...
i am blessed

Homeless

Well.. right now i am in the middle of nowhere, i am so fucked up..and i realized how is the feeling of being lonely and homeless, This week is a whole mess for me. i thought this year i`m going to have the best year ever...but i was wrong.. the bad things started to rolling into my head.
I spent 3 days in my friends house, because my previous apartment was over. so we have to pack up and move out..so i asked my fren to let me stay..thank him for that..3 days was enough for me..and i feel so embarassed to myself, because i have to ask one by one of my class mate..whether i can stay in their house or not. but right now..i ended up in computer lab in uts. well i might spent my entire night in here..rather to stay in backpackers or whatsoever..
at least i save 30 bucks for a day...but hopefully tomorrow i will get a decent place to stay in hordern towers.. hopefully....

The shit thing is that i have to go to school at 9 in the morning..now its already 10 p.m..and i dont have a fuckin clue how am i going to sleep.. at least it wa quiet and save in here.
the good thing is that i started to feel how is the homeless people live their life everyday in the road..at least in my case i`m better than those people.
I guess this time i wont stay with my bro and his gf anymore..because we had a different opinion about renting apartment..so i think its better for us to split..
but it was really a messed when i had the argument with them..
At one moment...i started to think about going back to medan, but i wont do that..because i have to catch up with my study and shit. i dont want to dissappoint my parents. but i really do miss my fren in medan..they are the best.. and i love them so much..

i couldnt think of anything no more..i had to many things in my head. i havent got my salary yet..and i have to go to coogee and talk with my boss again..and etc...haih..
but first thing i have to do is to have a place to stay first..i mean a real place...unlike these situation.. well i hope God will bless me..