Worry?

my perception about life has changed dramatically.
after all, i am not so wasted when i was in Indo
i could see that my parents are getting old.. very old..sometimes i feel sorry for them..
i realized that my parents love me so much, even though sometimes they are really nagging

These day, i could see a lot of relatives of mine facing a lot of problem.
due to the unbalanced economic of our country,
it`s very hard to start a new business, and if you work you`ll get only 200 aussie dollar a month'
that`s not enough!

One of my best friend that i have known since i was 5 years old is currently unemployed, he was graduated from Perth Curtin. He told me that he has to start a mobile phone shop by himself because he couldnt get a decent job in Jakarta.
I heard that the competition of hunting job is real damn hard
i was psyched!..

I can see why eveyone gathered into the Capital city of Indo (Jakarta) to bet for a better life
and i heard that most of the stuffs including food and shit is more expensive than in other city.
it confuse me what to do for my better life.
i wish i could look at my future before i make a beneficial decision!
Life is great in Sydney, but the distances between my parents, my girl friend and my mate makes me think a lot.

i need more friends to optimize my ability and give me an inspiration!
cause i really care about friendship.
But one thing that i know for sure..
Never involved money into the friendship
Money can harm anyone, everyone even your own brother..
Money can be a dangerous thing!

The problem with me is that i am easily adapted with a new friends.
even if i know he bitch for 1 day, we can talk and having a conversation like we have known each other for about years!.
thats what i hate of my attitude!.
I need to be someone who doesnt care about anything.
i care too much about others!. that sometimes i feel so weak like pussy

i still dont have a clue what`s best for myself.
after i graduate from Insearch, i`ll start a new journey to be a better Zico
I mean a new me!