I just got home yesterday to Medan, I arrived at 3.30 a.m! Airlines-Fuckin retard!
I am so pissed with all the bullshit!
anyway after i got into medan, things are really not going like i want it to be!
So i went to fortune-teller to ask about my the one. He said that We aint belong together but on the other hand, he gave a prediction of football matches and 3 of it were all lost! So i am a bit twisted about to believe it or not...but really it bothers me! I am seriously dont even know what to do!
That was afternoon by the way, by the night i have to pick up my Mum from the airport, but before that Ivana came by to my house to pick up some things! she came with her bf which she told me they day before that she is going to break up! i am so pissed and just left cause i am sicked and tired of chix bull crap! seriously!
Then suddenly Cindy my bebe gave me a call and warn me about yenny cause she heard something about her from bebe's trustworthy mate!
She said that yenn is a cheap girl and no good! i shoulda watch my back and let her go! bla bla bla... so i am so disturbed by the facts about gossip contra with the facts that she and i are really connected!
So i am so fuckin confused!, what a retard! But i couldnt ignore Cindy's advise cause i knew she care about me a lot and she is doing no harm for me!
What i have been through in Jkt gave me a lot of doubt about her anyway! cause we acted like we were couple! and the more i meet her, the more i care about her! it sad to leave Jakarta and knowing that there is someone else chasing her!.
But i gotta be matured and act cool!So i do have a plan to come again in the next 2 weeks, but because of a lot of talking about her! (Bad one). i am so scared that i might get punked real bad!
Anyhow, i gotta focus o my goal and future instead of her btw!
Cause i really believe in my instinct that she is a good person! We met because we were destined! I know i am a good person! i wouldnt fall in the same hole again n again!
i gotta follow my guts instead of listening to others opinion!
However, everything is going to awesome if i could make it to Jakarta!
cause instead of living in Hell(Mdn). i would rather be in some other places without so much gossip!
