How could she....

Again..i failed as a man, Its happening..
Its the end between babe and me..
I jut wanna take this moment..to say..that i am really angry with myself..
There is nothing i can do to change the situation..

Though at times u said that u rili care about me.. but from the act u have shown recently...i am in doubt..
Well babe, i was trying to understand you but you dont even give a rat ass..when i was worried because of ur mood swing behavior suddenly..

Why does good thing has to end!
You are really everything that i wanted to be with..
To be honest, i became mellow because i really like you...i want you to believe that there is still good man left in this earth..
I wanna take care of you..

But since that u ignored me...i will try my best to live bymyself..to find my way..
At times when i pursue u again..then you will know that i am already become the man that you always wanted..
i dont know how long is it gonna takes..but i wish that before 2011 i will stand up like a Man...

I do hope that you will wait for the time comes...i will be there..just wait..
maybe i am trying to hard to myself....
i shoulda be more relax...
anyway thx for everything really..

sori that i couldnt be cool enough to face the circumstances that given
i feel shit when you acted weirdly..however, i can accept for who you are...and i never care for everything...

For me, you are important..

this is the first time i am having this kind of situation..
i feel shit..

you said that it wont be a problem if i am mellow kind of guy..and u said its good to be yourself..
but how could you be affected then?
why why why...

Am i wrong to be honest with ya
well you tell me then...
i would never lie to you..

Massacre

Aishh...Lately been very dull...
Thinkin a lot about babe....
Nothing i could say..that i am so into her..
she is different...mysterious type kind of girl..
thats what i like about her...

hard to get....
self respect..and vain..hahaha

Yesterday something happend between us..
i became mellow suddenly when she said about the word "friend"
it pisses me off cause i was thinking back about my past relationships..and it affected my behavior real sux..

So she said that US would be hard to be into a relationships because i would get hurt eventually in da future..
but it was just that i was influenced by the situation...

I am just hoping that she wouldnt judge my behavior based on that only
cause i am really like her and worried....she told me to be relax...thats what iam gonna do...i trust her...

But it happend for a reason..that i could see the quality inside her..
I am so shocked,sad and happy at the same moment..we talked till 5.30..Till my mum got angry coz i didnt sleep..
How could i?

She told me to think about...what would if u if u are living in da mountain with one girl...no one elses...would u fall for her?
well i think abouut it real hard in da living room below...while i am smoking..
I think the possibility about who and whom..
and my final conclusion is that..i wouldnt fall for someone that i dont like at the first place...cause thats just not me..
attraction is the important part for me...Not kindess no whatsoever

So babe..i hope u are trust me...cause whenever u ask me this question i will give you the same answer..
I really do believe that we have something to treasure...
This isnt the end of us..

Though u said that u will give me the answer in a month..and the favour is not in my side...because of the lackness of my attitude yesterday..
I still believe...for everything u said..