I am in da state of confusion at moment.
I think i met my soul mate.
Her name is Stephanie Sarah Karta, I called her Fan2, I met her through friends in Jakarta. At first, she was with her bf i thought, but at the end i found out that it was just a friends of hers.
I have an attraction towards her, cause i think she's very friendly and tall at first impression.
At time goes by, we had a little chat through msn and i feel we have a lotsa of similarity and same hobbies which is very rare to find.
Cause i think that i am quite an eccentric and different from others.
what others adore or like i might loath.
This is who i am, not for being different or controversy.
I met her the second time when it was my visitation to Bali,
She managed to meet me when she told me that the next day she is about to go to Singapore to visit her grandfather.
Well at first we didnt talk much cause there was my mates and her mates. but one thing that i remember is that i bought a necklace from her to give my my friends as a souvenir.
We met only once.
As time goes by, the conversation continue from msn.
I promised her that i will come to Jakarta if it is her birthday, it happens in April 5th.
I went to Jakarta after i came back from Bangkok.
I didnt go to her birthday, cause i didnt know how to go to her birthday party. but one thing that i am glad of is that i didnt make it.
Cause i didnt know her friends, and later i found out that the guy came to her birthday party.
I truly believe that everything happen for a reason.
And i am gladly and truly Thank to Buddha for giving me sign.
Cause i wasnt prepared how to act or react.
But the next day, I got up early and i went to find the location for my training job for monday in Garuda Center. (Airline). After i found and memorized how to get there, I asked my aunt to teach me how to go to her place.
Well, we already made a schedule for our date later on at night. but i wanted to surprise her i guess. so i bummed myself to her office. which i promised to do so. cause i didnt go to her grand opening.
So i met her and we had a quite delightful dinner, the thing that i like about her is that, she's unique, hard working, different, Cool, unpredictable yet very charming.
How many girls know that a movie such as Shawshank and Finding Forester is a good movie? I bet only 3% in my hometown knew about that movie.
We had same education background which is cool, and the other thing that surprises me is that she knew how to play a piano!
Once i said when i was in high school, whoever can play me S.E.N.S songs i would marry her and yet i found the girl in Jakarta.
things happend bizzarely.
I dont think that she's attracted to me, cause we have a different religion and the main problem i think is Long Distance situation.
I am really guessing right now. but one thing i do know is that she's the girl i wanted to be.
One thing that bothers me a little i guess is that, When it was saturday, the day that i expect that she would date me. but yet instead she cancelled her date with me just to be with Dobi.
At first i thought Dobi was a girl, so i played it cool and i said well its okay i understand. just do whatever you want.
But later on Devi was telling me that Fan2 was been hanging out with Dobi.
Well i felt a lil bit unease, that i know that i must have like this girl so bad otherwise i wont feel a thing.
But the fact i felt moron is the answer about how i feel towards her.
The thing is that i have no reason to be angry whatsoever cause she told me the truth.
she aint lying or making an excuses.
Therefore, i like her more.
Now, All i can do is to wait for the right moment to tell her that i have been silently adore her.
I hope that this is my one. my destiny, my future, and my sign of everything that i am hoping for a long time.
