My title mean something to me, it was my first grade till sixth grade where i met my best fren and till today i am still stucked with him. Actually it was since from kindergarten as consequences that my friendship with him is very solid. I can truly say that he is the only guy that i trust totally. even i am always warned by many others that not to trust people 100%.
Saint Joseph brought a lot of memories for me, it was the year without worries for not having a money, gf, job etc2.. I was just playing all the time with mates. When the study hour was finished i was out there playing for 1-2 hours before i was grab by my driver to send me home.
It was a joyful memory n it was already 20 years or so behind me. As time goes by, worries, doubt, hesitance about decision making and about life makes me nauseous. I have so many responsibility and goal to accomplish. and from where i stand right now, i aint proud at all. I have not achieve anything that makes my parent proud.
I learn a lot about life and yet i still think that i am not matured enough yet to make something happend. i need to be more confident and have some faith. Cause i believe that everyone has their own purposes in life. I know that i wont do harm to others, by that i can always believe that my Saint will always bless and protect me for whatever i do as long as it is for a good harm.
I am not saying by hardwork u aint do good in life.it just that 80% of my life till today is because simply based on luck. i feel lucky most of da time. even i am always disappointed about love. I hope this time that the cursed will be broken. cause finally and cross my finger...she is the one.
I do have a plan about settling down, and i hope by the year 2009 i will make a significant progress...cause i have been wasting all my life to be honest..and i am ashamed of admitting it. 2 years is the time that it had been wasted.
Isnt life sometimes Ironic? when u less expecting something, it came to u.. when u try so hard to get it.. it will always never be in ur reach.. now, opportunity has come. all i got to do is focus. and believe that i will survive and do good in life. cause i will never forgive myself to let those who loves me sincerely, for who i am.
I am still learning though about character, life, perception, love... i wont be the perfect guy.. but i believe that i will be the guy that will be loved totally by the one that by that steals my heart.
i wish for the best for everyone. and remember.... if u do no harm to others. God will always protect you., God will never make u suffer. there is no such thing as try out. God will never n ever control humans life like a game.
It is Karma that matters in this world..
I truly believe in it and i am scared of it.
I've been hurting people before...and i am truly sorry for that.
