Freak Fuckin Show

I never post anything more about my love life ever since .

but here i am today writing these off to break the spell.

To Gel, The reason i am not staying in ur house because i wanna finish my blog and writing since i have a lot in mind to put in words.

things happened rapidly as a result i am expecting that u will understand the better of me as a person and ur future one.. if not than we r not meant to be together

As for my beloved readers, so many things that is bizarre to be even expressed that i am trying to write these special edition with such title as above.

6th of August i finally realized that so many pathetic or creature that even not worth mentioning but i will tell the story to y'all figure out.

I met this so called fortuneteller aka angels of death i am suppose to say.

since he talked and boasted too much about himself that i can figure him out that easily,

firstable let me explain religion is Buddhism. and i only obey and belief Siddharta Gautama or The Enlightened one. Siddharta had been reincarnated several times before reach the enlightenment

Meditation is the key to it

okay now, because of the evolution/revolution so many perception had been made up by human being itself so there is other giddy god, that promises to make people live become better nor suffer.

So the one i met is like having a giddy god he called to follow his ass all da time. and by doing that he help human being to reach their expectation without asking for money etc

he got upset when i din give a lot of attention since from start he mumbled a story about his since i myself don't really impressed to one of a kind show.

he made several mistakes that nobody in Gel's family realize that he is so con.

let me point out one by one before u guys judge me:.

1, he talk about others patient about their problems to us which is prohibited if according to the secrecy. so that means that this guy really likes to talk since he himself doesn't have any shit to do instead.

2. God never has an emotion toward others or even think about making harm n making people suffered. he himself said he will do for his own pleasure if he was pissed. which i think is a lame. kindness is buddha religion and for his statement below i think he is devilish one.

3. he being hypocrite for telling others to be patient and control gels brother anger..since himself can't control his..so what makes him different from us

4. he is trying to put a The Master show in front of me trying to impress me like Limbad did in the reality show. which is kinda childish and pathetic. i wasn't buying those shit. and by the way oh i don't give a fuck

5. for u to called me being lucky to be born in a good family just because i was lucky is just a cheap statement from another jealousy person. for u calling me being a sadistic and mean person is 100% to u aye aye. i prove u shit. what matters is my family opinion about me.

why would i forgive person for just wanting to take advantage of me? there is always cause n effect. when i am not being able to used.. nor friend would call me justo to say hi..so does that make me making an asshole and being a selfish person?… it just me being a smart person for not giving anymore hope.

as a result, i am happy for me being me, rather to be sucked in by bad people.

oh if u are so good why don't u just focus on doing and helping gel's family then? does it make sense that ur giddy god doesn't want to help because of personal reason? din Buddha said that always forgive ur enemy. i figure that u have nothing to show so u made up some excuses.

oh n to be honest i never want to test you or try to make u angry. u r just being sensitive and putting an ultimatun to make me suffer with ur arrogance saying is just a lil too much isn't it?.

so what did i learn from this experience. people who talk to much usually is no good.,not real, and desperate to make some living.

6, when u say Saibaba is a genuine person that makes u even more hoax, cause discovery by BBC broadcast is never lie. the closest thing they investigate that no flaws is Palden Dorje in Nepal that meditate without eating and driking for 12 months

lastly 7, by u showing ur anger is making me so sure that u r no genuine. cause i can figure ur ass out..by being figured i as a human will be angry as well by my competitor..how simple is that,

truth to be told, i am sick and tired for those people who kept seeing and finding a solution with these kind of person/method. why would u honor someone who drink, eat, feel the same in this earth. how desperate people are.

isn't it not enough to commit urself fully to Enlightened one? i hope Gel, someday if u r reading this u will know how simple as i want it to be. i just want us to have a simple minded with one goal is all.

i do hope a lot to u cause since i care to u alone instead of anything else. that u will understand me better each day. cause its breaking my heart to see a messy life in ur family which is really bothers me..

all i can promise is to take you alone to my family and to have a simple life without an interruption from others

i do hope u won't seek such freak show anymore.

if ur family depended on them and truly trusted those giddy god..so let it be.

but if u want to be with me truly like i do now. i hope u will listen to what i am saying. not with a force. but with sincerity i wish u can truly see the real me instead of what he said.

one day u will be reading this too, and if u r not in the same page as me so u can let me know so i can move on

i can't talk to u in the real time because of u r always being so negative and harsh. that is why i am putting these on words to let u know that it bothers me to see such kind of messy n fucked up situation. and u have been very bad to me by hitting me and showing some attitude which i hated the most.

so no rush, its okay if u r about to give up cause i can't force u to agree with me. but i do have my principle of life and no one can take it from me.

he may influenced one to 100 people. but he surely won't have my approval for being the enlightened one. he is just a commoner shit human being

my life has nothing to do with it. and i don't want anything have to do with it. so mark my words, i will never have any interest for those kind of shit anymore. freak fuckin show.

Gel= can u do that with me as well? cause before we marry as one…i need to know whether i can trust u fully a hundred percent.

i may be a very hard guy to understand but surely i am not a mean and bad person which is lookin to harm people to gain my satisfaction and personal benefits

remember that.

My Life has been a roller coaster. and this has to stop today with so many con artist and fucked up people around. its inhumanely sick and a sin

are you with me?

and p.s : i dig that u are trying to survive by selling ur B.S, but next time put it on youtube so u can make it Rich.

p.s: dad and mum i am grateful for the life u guys have given me compared to others i finally understood. that we are completely a unit as on

Sarange Appa, Omma..

Oh yea one more thing, i feel disappointed with your family member that day, cause when i looked around when he talked trash nobody even dare to give an opinion back. everyone is bowing down and look down as if God is speaking. Well fuck that, i have had enough the character is told by the way interpreted. i have formed my opinion about ur family. and it din belong to my world and i don't dig ur world and i won't.

so never expect me to listen anymore devilish talk and opinion. i don't wanna have anything to do with it anymore.

My heart don't lie that certain things that u done in this world is showing a pathetic human being people are. people who doesn't believe in themselves seek those

As a result, i dont respect y'all anymore.