Christmas is all around

Gates of Heaven

I wanna share any good moment in these holiday break. I have to enjoy and be relax and sleep a lot because in the first week of my school i will be busy and i will have a lot of project to hand in. and two weeks later i have to do the final exam.
I dont have any new story at the moment in my life. my life is kinda bored anyway, but i wanna share my interest, something that has inspired me.
Well there are 2 major things: Music and Movie

Without Music my life might become miserable and unhappy
Hm.. i have to admit that X japan is the most that i loved...i mean their songs contain a sadness lyrics. though it is japanese language but some of them are english and i have a translator though. I think they were the greatest performer in the stage if you havent seen the Last Live concert back 1997 you should watch it.. it was remarkable.
At the moment i love Tiziano Ferro songs called Sere Nere..it was emotional song and very beautiful written by him. I guess he had the same problem as me in relationships.
actually there are so many songs that had inspired me but it will be boring if i write it on details.

Well for this Christmas i dont have any plan yet. maybe i`m going to join one of my friends to celebrate it. well at least this is the first time i am going to celebrate christmas in Sydney. Well i hope its not going to be dull and sux.
I tell the story later....

Anyway i had a weird dream last night. i dreamt about my best buddy Dre, Well i guess it was in the future. but i hope its not going to happend, Dre had a fight with my friend because Dre thinks he got punked. Well it was kinda messy and blurry in my head. all i can remember is that i tell Dre to cool down. he really pissed in my dream. for your circumstances i wish you will be fine dude. dont worry everythings gonna be fine.
keep in faith all the time..

Well...something came up to me..my parents are coming on 29th December hahaha..so excited, anyway i got a job in the coogee beach. i will start working tomorrow yeeehaa...i`ll start working for 6 hours, sounds good heh?. anyway thanks to Endry, he is my savior hehe..i will treat you a meal in my first payment. anyway, i went to center point today after i talked with the manager of garlos pie( the place that i will earn my dollars). it was cool in the pitt st. there were so many people singing a christmas songs.. which is cool, hahah for the first time i seen a lot of beautiful things around me. I love christmas :), i have to finish my another assignment for the feature articles project 2...damnn.. in holiday i have to study....it sux.
but this saturday i will go to the cinema to watch phantom of the opera..yeehaa, but unfortunately the manager told me to work at 31st december from 10 at night until morning..shit.. i have to celebrate my new year in my working place....that sux..but the good things i will earn double hehe which is cool.. anyway..i wish i can do well in my first job ever with a strangers..i just bought a book in kinokuniya, Donald J Trump How to get Rich, well i hope it will be useful though, for the next presentation in my median analysis class i will present something that related to Donald J Trump and his show the Apprentice.. hopefully i will do well..
Till then...ciaooo

Finally Free

Well i just finished my school..now i am having a good holiday. A lot of things happend to me, where should i start? hm... Hiro had a party couple of weeks ago in my apartment, there were about 30 peoples in the barbeque stand to have a party.but the party didnt go very well because Hiro got drunk and he had to go home earlier. Toshi,Syo, Yusaka stayed in my house n have a chat, actually at that time we saw a crawling cloud. it was beautiful anyway, i forgot to take a picture because i was too busy to have a conversation with all of the. well the next day i went to Army`s birthday. Well i finally can get through my life slowly but for sure. i started to forget about her slowly but for sure. this time i am not going to use my heart anymore. this time i`m using my head so i wont make any mistake no more.

Hmmm. actually in Friday i saw her in the Superbowl...i was trying to go to her house to pick up my stuff although before that i tried to call her.. she didnt pick it up, so i went to her house with Endry and my brother. when we were on the way home.. Endry suddenly wanted eat a fish ball so we stopped beside superbowl in y2k to buy some fish ball..
My bro shouted "hey thats Cindy and that Busaiku (fuck face)". i turn my head around and see them...walking away from me...i guess they didnt see me. she wore a black suit and thats the last time i ever see her....i was standing just standing firmly..and look at her...while her footstep slowly but sure left me behind.. I am so sad to think about how we ended up.. i wish i could turn back time but we both know thats impossible. Why she didnt realise that i really care about her, i know i hurt her before, but how could she? I must meant nothing to her, How can she be so cruel?

Well... maybe i have to let her go...there is nothing i can do right now..i only wish that as time goes by all the bad memores will be erase. Luckily she has gone for a while, i hope i wont meet her anymore in Sydney. I do have a plan to fade away this time.

Bebe, you know that i never want you to hate me like these day. cause i never hate you after what you have done to me. i always forgive you and always love you. Well i hope that you will find your own happiness cause i will not bother you anymore..
i have to concentrate on what i am doing right now, i dont wanna waste anymore second of my life. each second of my life mean something for me and i`m so tired... i have to lean back and to forget everything for a while. maybe i wont write anything anymore for a moment..
i am lost to put all my feeling into words..i will let you go this time.. no matter how hard it is. i have to accept that we are not meant to be together..
until then.....
Later...

may God always be with you....

Zizi