Orchestra?

I just got back in Medan from Jakarta, It wasnt like i expected before..so many stuffs happend right there...
It wasnt that fun like it was supposed to be..

I have been attracted to kath recently, we got to know each other like a month...Then we met in Jakarta..everything went fine..
I am happy when i was around her..

But i am not sure about the relationship that we are going to have since the distance between us is not supporting us.
Then, something just came up...

I am so pissed and i dont even know whether i could trust her or not!
since that she already said that she aint going to the club and alcohol for a while!
but today, she sent me a text said that she is going to!
Well as the matter of fact, i am not pissed about she wanted to go to the club.
but she broke the promise that she has made!
i am dissappointed...i really do! cause once a liar is forever a liar!

the other things is that i do really care about her! she just recovered from her illness...
But i have no choice, cause she aint listening to me..
now, i am really doubt whether she is for real or not!
does she really care about me? from the act she did...she aint give a rat shit..
She said that as well in da phone..so i have to becareful from now on
cause if u act like this...i aint gonna trust u no more

Every words that comes out from your mouth...its all bull shit
Why do u have to be fake!
So if u read this one day babe...so you know that there is no point acting cool and ignorant! cause that aint true to yourself

i aint gonna act like there is nothing happening..cause it affects my perception about us..
so you know..that faking is not my cup of tea
okay i dont wanna say nothing no more...at the moment..u aint gonna care..cause u are having fun over there..

Whatever i said will do nothing good..
so then....and once again...
i will be waiting for what is gonna happend in da future.